You've Got The Love

Love is all you need.

Ever since I moved here to the Philippines - currently General Santos City (read here) I find myself sighing every single day.  If I had hair I would've pulled it.  “This is too much.”  I ask myself, “Why in the world did I fall for FIL’s words?”  I had a good job, a home, a life.  Now I have none.

“Why be an employee when you can be your own boss here?”  Oh, the things he said for two years were so convincing and enticing.  He made it sound like it was an amazing opportunity he was offering.  Why are we so hard headed and should just "obey" and listen to him.  Hah!  Oh man, you said you are one of the best salesmen.  I agree.

I would never have thought he would screw me over.  I mean parents are supposed to help their kids, right?  Not in this case.  He did the exact opposite.  He had “amnesia” soon as we came.  We didn't even get the opportunity to unpack and settle in.  Before long we got the picture he was on a path to totally f*** up me and my wife’s life.  The move was indeed a life change.  For the worse.  I’ll probably tell you more later about what he said and what happened.

My wife and I before coming to the Philippines in my opinion had a really good relationship.  I mean for fifteen years we barely argued.  In a year, probably just twice.  We always talk things out, even the smallest things.  Why argue?  It’s heavy on the heart.  Might as well talk, be happy and in love. 

Soon as we realized what he did to us, we felt our sanity slowly seeping out and draining on the floor.  We were in a emotional roller coaster.  Endless fears of the unknown and sinking reality that we made a terrible mistake became a monster consuming us. The situation was putting a strain on my relationship with my wife.  Blames were thrown.  Arguments started.  “Why did you believe him?”  “Why did we come here?”  We were falling apart.  I wanted to break down and cry. 

Some of our possessions were getting destroyed, there was nowhere to put them, we have no money, we had no home.  Thank you FIL for doing  this to us.  I felt like swearing at him.  I felt like swearing at myself.  We have our back against the wall and barely surviving.  We are selling our possessions to subsist.  We were in hell.   

Love is powerful though. It can change how you think and feel. Instead of turning away from each other, we reached out to each other and gave each other strength.  We realized that even if we don’t have anything now, we are still lucky.  We still have each other.  We just had to remember how we were to each other back then.  We had to remember we are still in love and love is all we have.  Everyday we don’t know what’s going to happen.  But we do know we've got the love to see this through.

I love you.

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